• I’m not going to lie. I’m not happy today…nor have I been lately. Lot’s of stressful stuff is going on and it seems as though Murphy’s Law is totally taking over my life. I’m hoping this will pass soon, but just in case, I’ve prepared myself for the worse. I’m going to be making an appointment with my doctor later today so I can get in there and get my meds increased and also get additional meds that I’m supposed to be taking, but have been too stubborn to do so. It’s finally catching up with me, and it feels totally crappy.

• I did my Bender Ball work-out early this morning. It felt really good. I’m the kind of person who likes to feel physical pain when I’m in emotional pain, so the burn from the work-out felt better than it normally would. It’s kinda odd to be working out when I want to hurt myself rather than doing the other junk I used to do. Much healthy, but still…feels really different.
• I’m currently listening to Danzig II: Lucifuge. Good album. I’m not a really hardcore Danzig fan by any means, but I’ve always gotten a lot out of this album.
• Spring Break is all next week. No school for the kids! Yay! That means I get to sleep in for another week! I’m such a sleep-a-holic lately!
• I thought it was going to be sunny today, but once again Mother Nature faked me out. The nerve! I suppose I don’t mind too much. My lawn, flowers, and plants all need water and not having to pay to give it to them is nice. I cannot believe how much they charge for water around here. It’s more than double what it was in Montana. It makes absolutely no sense to me. It rains on a nearly constant basis here and we live right by the freakin’ ocean…and the Columbia river is huge and runs right through here. There’s water everywhere…yet we’re paying for it as though it’s nowhere. It lacks logic in all ways.
• I have zero energy today. I’m not even sure how the heck I mustered up enough energy to do my work-out. There’s a ton of stuff I’m supposed to be doing right now, but I SO don’t feel like doing it. I barely feel like writing this Randomness!
• Wow…I’m really coming off as emo today. Oh well. Not every day can be sunshine and rainbows. Although a little sunshine might help my mood a bit!
• I’ve decided that I love cupcakes. I don’t care about eating them…I just love the way they look. They are so adorable! I added a TON of stuff to my wishlist over on Wishroll…most of which has a cupcake theme going on. Necklaces, socks, bracelets, earrings, bedding, towels…you name it. Why can’t I ever do anything in moderation?!
• I apologize for being such a downer today. At least I’m not fake, though. This is me…take it or leave it. I’ve been saying that a lot lately. I have been made to feel pretty inadequate on so many different levels as of late, so I think it’s getting to me. My whole “Take it or leave it” attitude is essentially me saying, “I give up. I am throwing up my hands. If you don’t like me or what I’m doing, that’s your choice. I cannot convince you otherwise, nor do I even have the energy to try anymore.” Like I said - this will pass. It’s just a matter of time. Hopefully not TOO much time.
• Since I’m a total pisser today, I’m going to stop typing now. I see no point when everything I say leads back to the same thing: I feel crappy. Don’t worry about me or anything…I will be just fine. It takes more than this to get the better of me.