
• I’m supposed to be laying down & taking it easy right now, but I felt this overwhelming urge to post some Randomness…so here I am. Once I’m done, I will go back to playing some Nintendo.
• I went to my daughter’s school this morning. They had a “Donuts For Dear Moms” thing. Basically all they do is provide free donuts, coffee, milk, & juice in the gym/cafeteria. Once you’re done chowing down on the goodies, the kids take their mom’s around for a tour…etc. I’ve already been at that school 23483 times, so I didn’t really need a tour. Of course, my daughter did want to show me the computer lab again.
She knew I’d like that.
• I’ve recently realized that losing a really close friend produces the same feelings as losing a partner. You go through all the same phases. First is the sadness, then the anger, then the missing that person, and then the questioning whether or not your decision was a good one. In my case, I feel like my decision was good because I’m deathly afraid of being hurt again, but I cannot deny that I’m still hurting. I mean, I’m human, after all. I’ve even thought of writing to my ex-friend to tell her that I apologize for being so…uh…well, I was kinda mean, I guess, in my last message to her. I’m kinda feeling badly for it. I know that she’d just ignore anything I had to say to her, though, so the point is moot.
I was just hurting at the time, and my emotions (which was anger at the time) spoke for me. If I had it to do over again, I’d probably be much more friendly and wouldn’t have told her that I never want to hear from her ever again. *sigh* Oh well. What’s done is done. I know logically that it’s for the better to remain apart, but my heart disagrees. I freakin’ hate that! The bottom line for me is that I hope she is happy, is moving on, and will develop either new friendships or rekindle old ones that’ll provide her with the attention and sensitivity that she needs. There’s no point in carrying a grudge, ya’ know? All it does is fester inside of me and make me feel crappy. Nothing good is to come of grudge carrying.
• I’m wearing Lonnie’s Snuggie right now. Ahhh…it’s so freakin’ cozy. My Mom bought it for him for his birthday. He was SO stoked, too! As a matter of fact he was so excited over the Snuggie that when he opened my gift which was a bluetooth headset, he was underwhelmed! DOH!!! I should’ve had him open mine first. Oh well…as long as he’s happy.
• Our Internet was down almost all day yesterday. Our ISP has really been screwin’ us around. There’s apparently something wrong with the lines in our area, but damn! How long does it take to figure it out?!
• Lonnie’s been playing drums for the church lately. Even thought it’s just the church, I’m happy for him. He was so heartbroken when he had to leave his drum kit behind in Billings, so to see him behind another set of drums warms my heart. If only they’d be okay with him busting out with some double bass! Hahaha!
• My brother is supposed to be calling me any day now. Maybe even today. Yay! I’m SO happy to be in touch with him again. Honestly, John & I have never really been close. He’s five years older than I am and even if there wasn’t an age gap, we’ve never really had a whole lot in common. The older we get, though, the more we have in common and it flippin’ pwns! He’s a really cool guy and is super intelligent, too. I love that…talking to stupid people is so irritating.
Anyway, we’ve both vowed to do our best to get closer to each other. Emails, phone calls…whatever it may be. He lives in Arizona, so it’s not easy to get together, but I’m sure we’ll either visit him or he will visit us some time. I certainly hope so, anyway. I genuinely miss him.
• I’m so glad today is Friday. Next week is Spring Break for my kids, so they’ll be hanging around. Yay! I love that! There’s something about having them home that I love so much. I think it’s a mixture of knowing they’re safe, enjoying their company, and just liking them being around. My son is 17 now, though, so he spends less and less time at home. He goes to the Rec. Center a lot. They have a gaming room there that he enjoys quite a bit. He’s also made a few friends there, so that’s cool.
• Speaking of the Rec. Center, I need to get on the elliptical machine tonight! w00t! I love that thing!
• I’m making my family a pot roast for dinner tonight. :gag: There’s no way I’ll eat that junk, but just because I’m a non-meat eater doesn’t mean they should have to suffer. I made some steaks for them last week and it didn’t kill me…although it did gross me out majorly. My daughter doesn’t like steak, either. She’s a beef eater, but she hates steak and roast for some reason. She and I will be eating chicken again tonight.
• Well, I know this edition of Random Randomness© is shorter than many others in the past, but I feeling incredibly dizzy and just not so great, so I’m going to go lay down and play some Zelda like I said I was going to over an hour ago.
I’m so stubborn. Anyway, I hope everyone has a lovely day!
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