• Nobody will EVER be able to hear the song “Everybody’s Workin’ For The Weekend” by Loverboy again without seeing Chris Farley doing his Chip n’ Dales thing.     He single handedly ruined that one for Loverboy…although I’d much prefer to picture good ol’ Farley than the dudes from Loverboy.

• Lonnie’s pulling an all-nighter tonight, so I’m going to do my best to stay up, too. I feel too guilty sleeping while he’s working all night. He doesn’t expect me to stay up - its’ just how I am.

• I’m sucking down coffee like it’s going out of style. Hopefully I’ll help.

• I love my new desktop. I LOVED my last one, so I was sad to see it go, but now that I’m doing this whole Desktop Thursday thing, I have to change it weekly. I normally would, anyway….unless I have one I really adore like last week’s. That’s okay. It’ll make the rounds again sometime in the future.

• I’m using OneNote to compose this again.  :swoon:

• I keep applying clear coat to my French tips. I’m afraid all the clicking on my keyboard will wear the white down. So I apply like two coats of clear coat per day. Better safe than sorry…although I only paid $3.57 for them at Sally Beauty Supply AKA my new home away from home.

• I love you, Sarah! xoxox

• Just had to say that. She’s not been online too much lately and I miss her lots. For those of you who don’t already know, we have declared that we’re each other’s wives. Yes, that’s right. We’re cyber married. If it’s good enough for these prepubescent little twits on MySpace, it’s good enough for us.    :P

• Yes, Lonnie is aware of the marriage to Sarah. He just rolls his eyes at it.    :lol:    Let him laugh…whatever. GOSH!

• The “toys” they give you in Cracker Jacks anymore are freakin’ pathetic. I demand a REAL toy!!!

• We bought 60 lemons, a jar of Cayenne Pepper, and a jar of 100% pure Maple syrup last night. We’re going to start the Master Cleanse Diet the day after tomorrow. I cannot wait! I’m SO excited!!! It’s FINALLY happening!!! I’m going to keep a log on how I feel and everything. Just thinking about it is making me feel sooooooooo flippin’ excited!

• My daughter is already buggin’ me to decorate for Christmas. We decorate on the weekend after Thanksgiving….alaways have. I told her that, but she thinks we need to change tradition. I explained to her that if we change traditions, the house might spontaneously combust, so we’ve gotta stay on schedule. She looked at me and said, “Gimme a flippin’ break, Mom. I’m 10, not retarded!”      Where the heck does she get that mouth?!?!

• My tailbone’s bothering me. I have arthritis in it from about 5 years ago when I fell down the stairs and broke it. It acts up once in a while. I guess these are one of these times. I need to go ask Lonnie to kiss my ass. Hehe

• Holy balls of crap! Now Lonnie’s playing Flock of Seagulls - “I Ran”. If he keeps it up, I’m going to be the one running…down the street in my t-shirt whilst screaming, “SAVE ME!!!”

• I’m so stoked that Lonnie’s been using his My.Opera account lately. I hope he’ll actually stick with it. I am certainly not holding my breath.

• BTW - If you would like a Christmas/holiday card from me, let me know and I will get your addy from you and mail you one. I want to break a personal record this year of how many I sent. I normally send quite the fist full, but I REALLY want to spread the cheer this year!!! So, seriously…..if you would like to be added to the list, just say the word, I’ll give you my email address where you can send me your mailing address and I will send a card! I promise to keep your address secret. I’m not the type to go blabbin’ that type of info. I respect people’s privacy just as though it is my own. Scout’s honor!

• Oh my. Now it’s “Karma Chameleon” - Culture Club. I’m not ashamed (although I should be) to admit that I actually like this song! Hahahaa

• Holy crapola! Sir-Mix-A-Lot?!?!?!!?! “Buttermilk Biscuits”!!! Hells yeah! Hahhahaaha…I love this song!

• Okay, time to wrap this mo-fracky up. Thank you so much to all of you who read my blog so religiously. I can’t tell you how excited I get when I get on my computer in the morning, open my Outlook, and see that I’ve got new comments on here. I immediately get all giddy and then race over here to see what was said. The fact that anyone wants to read what I have to say boggles my mind…and the fact that you keep coming back is truly touching. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I love you guys!!!

As some of you may know, I’ve been going through a medical nightmare lately. I suppose I should briefly explain what’s been going on so that I don’t get a gazillion messages asking me if I’m dying or whatever. Sooo…here’s the dealio:

In April of 2005, Lonnie and I were in our Ford Explorer traveling North up Main Street in Billings, Montana. The traffic light turned yellow far enough in advance for Lonnie to know that if he had attempted to make it through, he would have run a red light. In order to remain a law abiding citizen, he applied the breaks and we came to a stop at the red light. Before we even knew what the heck was going on, we heard a very loud horn blow and then Lonnie yelled something…I can’t recall what. I’m assuming it was something like, “Brace yourself!”…or something to that affect.

Well, the jackass who was driving a fully loaded cattle semi-truck behind us failed to pay attention and he nailed the ass-end of our vehicle. The driver of the truck attempted to drop the clutch and do whatever he could to keep from hitting us, but it didn’t work. As a matter of fact, the dropping of the clutch made matters worse. It caused the semi to hit us repeatedly. Kinda like a skipping hit…thump…thump…thump…until he finally stopped.

The end result was not pretty. Lucky for the driver of the semi, my kids were not in the vehicle at the time. Had they been in there, I would probably be in prison for murder right now. Lonnie and I ended up with some not-so-fun injuries, though. Both of us have herniated disks, bulging disks, degenerative disk disease…and I am lucky enough to have some pretty bad nerve damage as well. So yeah…we’re constantly in pain. We’ve been to countless doctors from Montana, Oregon, and now Washington for these issues. I am absolutely disgusted with the medical field. Truly disheartened, sickened, and utterly amazed at the lack of care we’ve gotten for our injuries.

This brings me to today…yesterday, and pretty much the past week. I’m not exactly sure what caused my injuries to flare up, but they have. I’m used to dealing with a steady amount of pain every single day. I’ve grown accustomed to it, really. I even have muscle loss, weakness, and numbness throughout my entire left arm and hand. This is due to the nerve damage. I’ve learned to compensate for these injuries in other ways. Although I’m left-handed and it’s my left arm/hand which is affected, I’ve done pretty well with learning to do things with my right arm and hand.

ANYWAY, back to why I’m even bothering to write this. I went to the ER last night due to the fact that I’m in immense pain and cannot hold any food or liquid down for the past two days. The pain is so intense that it’s causing me to be nauseated constantly. I’m even taking Phenergan for the nausea, but it’s not working. It got to the point where I couldn’t sit up without being in excruciating pain and laying down wasn’t any relief, either. It just caused a different type of excruciating pain. To top it off, every move I make causes me to feel as though I’m going to vomit. Needless to say, I am SO sick and tired of this pain and feeling this way.

I am FAR from a junkie. I don’t even like to freakin’ take Tylenol when I have a headache. (Speaking of which, I’ve had a migraine for three days.) This guy talked down to me in a way that I have not experienced since the abuse my ex, Marc, used to dish out. I realize this might sound stupid to some people, but I don’t even care. The way this guy talked to me, looked down at me, and belittled me caused me to have flashbacks. (I have PTSD due to the severe abuse from my ex…and his suicide which I witnessed.) I was sitting there in that office bawling my brains out. The guy wouldn’t let up. He just kept going with his accusatory tone and insulting questions and statements.

Well, he eventually left the room…at which time I had a mini nervous breakdown. I was crying so hard that I could barely breath. I was at the point of hyperventilation. It was not a fun time. Lonnie felt so helpless. …well, the nurse finally came in with the discharge orders. She let me know that the doctor had given me 6…SIX Vicodin to last me 11 days until my next doctor’s appointment. How the hell am I supposed to make six pills last 11 days? It was just one more way for him to show me that he thought I was just there for a fix…although I have medical records to back everything up. MRI’s, EMG’s, …you name it. Didn’t matter to this guy. He literally did everything but flat out say, “I believe that you are a junkie.” Absolutely unbelievable.

So now, here I am…the next night. I’ve eaten twice today…both times I vomited what I had eaten. The pain is just too much for me to handle. I cannot even hold food down. I’ve gotten three hours of sleep in the past 3.5 days…and I don’t see how I’ll be able to get any more sleep when I’m in this much pain. Laying down is literally excruciating. Sitting up is like torture, too. The fact that I’ve sat here and typed this out without having to get up and take a break is nothing short of a miracle.

So, Lonnie and I are going to try again tonight. I simply cannot live like this. I would NEVER, EVER think of taking my own life, but I can honestly say that this ordeal has left me feeling more depressed and suicidal than I have felt in a very, very long time. We are supposed to be able to turn to doctors when we need help. They take Hippocratic Oaths for a reason. The lack of care I’ve been subjected to around here is astounding…and you had better believe I’m reporting it to the higher-ups. I refuse to take this crap laying down. Something MUST be done about it. I cannot stand the thought of someone else going through anything similar to this.

The time has come for us to head out to the ER…again. If it happens again, I don’t know what I’ll do. Honestly. I just cannot take it. I’m very emotionally fragile right now. I’m hoping and praying that I will finally get someone who cares about me as a person with feelings.

• I have an appointment with a doctor on Monday - for my back/neck injury. I can’t take it anymore. I’ve put off going to a doctor for way too long…now I just can’t put it off anymore. I hurt too much everyday.

• I’m boycotting Hormel. I’ll write a separate blog entry with all the details.

• I’ve been boycotting KFC for almost four years…for similar reasons.

• I’m no longer a member of PETA. I used to be a very active member…and was proud of it. For a while, though, they’ve been pretty unreal. I am ALL for animal welfare and all that jive. The people at PETA, though, are way too over the top for me anymore. I don’t want to associate myself with a group of people who are that flippin’ far out in left field.

• I know I’ve said it before, but I CANNOT WAIT to do that lemonade cleansing diet thing. I’m dying with anticipation!

• Monday, September 29, 2008 is National Coffee Day! Can you believe it?! The day before my birthday is National Coffee Day…then my birthday is on the 30th of September..and then Casey’s birthday is on the 1st of October!!! Talk about a three day run of awesomeness! w00h00!

• I’m hungry.

• I heard from my good friend, Jenn. I’m so happy and relieved to know that she’s happy. She’s been through so much crap in her life…it does my heart good to know that she’s being taken care of and that she’s content. We haven’t been friends for that long (less than a year), but we both agree that it feels like much longer. I’m so lucky to have such awesome people in my life.

• I already mentioned that the people at Comcast are total nazis, right? Okay…just making sure.    

• I’m wearing my son’s shirt today. He got kinda pissy when he saw that I had it on. (doh!) I told him, “Hey! It was left in the dryer. Items in the dryer are fair game!” He didn’t like that too much. He never even wears this shirt, so gosh…I don’t see what the big deal is. I told him that we should work some sort of barter out so I can just keep the shirt. He’s willing to humor it…all I have to do is come up with something good in exchange. That shouldn’t be a problem.

• I took a Baclofen earlier and now my tongue is totally numb.          Man, that’s a weird feeling.

• I’ve been having some really freaky dreams lately. I wouldn’t say they’re nightmares…just really intense and trippy.

• Lonnie keeps bananas in the fridge, and I freakin’ hate that. GROSS! Who wants a cold banana? Not me, darn it.

• Why am I such a sucker for these Internet thingies where you type in what you’re doing? I love them…not just a little, either. I LOVE them!

• I got an account at Plurk the other day. I really, really like it there. The only problem is remembering to post on it. I have so much other junk going on that I sometimes space out!

• In case you haven’t noticed yet, my site is back to running smoothly. Yay! I got sick and tired of it being so slow, so I took some time to look through my code and make sure it was all okay. I’m so happy I did that. I found a section of code that had, for some reason, gone all screwy. Now the site is loading at a proper rate and everything. Yesss! Such a relief! I don’t have to worry about transferring it to a different server or anything.

• I’m getting a headache.

• I cannot get enough of the Instant Rimshot! I have that sucker ready to go at all times. When Lonnie says something funny, BAM! I hit the red button. Even if he’s not saying something funny, I hit it. It kinda pisses him off when I hit the button when he’s in the middle of being upset with me for something…but that just makes me do it even more! Hahaha…I’m such a turd.

• It’s 10:15 at night and I’ve not eaten anything yet today. I suppose I should probably do that soon.

• Lonnie just decided to reboot the server and not tell me about it. I’m sitting here cussing at my computer thinking the reason I can’t access anything is because it’s a piece of crap. Come to find out, he rebooted the server without saying a freakin’ word. How irritating.

• My hair is getting so grey. I knew I had lots of greys in there, but wow. I took a picture of myself two days ago and saw how much the greys stand out. It’s depressing. I’m going to dye it. I feel so old, ugly, and dumpy with the greys showing like this. I let Lonnie convince me not to cover ‘em up for long enough. Now I’m going to do what I want to do.

• I’m craving an Oreo milkshake from Jack In The Box. Oh man, those are SO good. Way too fattening, but still…incredible. (That was a picture of Lonnie’s strawberry shake and my Oreo shake from almost a year ago, BTW. I made that picture for him and posted it on his MySpace page.)

• Okay, that did it. Talking about an Oreo shake made me really hungry. I think I’m going to go eat…finally.

 • I’ve gotten a really good start on the site design for that fireworks company I was talking about previously. It feels good to have gotten so much work done today…although I probably should have gotten even more done.

• I’m listening to this album called “Arabic Lounge” right now. I enjoy this stuff quite a bit. It’s a lot different from the norm, but that’s a good thing.

• We watched “The Sasquatch Gang” two nights ago. I totally loved it. It’s from the same guys who made “Napoleon Dynamite“…and you can tell. It has the same feeling to it - not to mention lots of the same actors are in it. If you enjoyed “Napoleon Dynamite”, you’d probably enjoy “The Sasquatch Gang” as well.

• Dinner sucked tonight. Everyone else liked it, but I hated it. I decided to make Hamburger Helper…but with ground turkey instead of beef. (Lonnie and I don’t eat beef, pork, lamb, buffalo, deer…anything but chicken, turkey, and seafood.) Hamburger Helper is already pretty disgusting, but when you make it with turkey, it’s even more nasty.

• I need to make a bunch more designs for products in my shop. It’d be nice if there were more hours in a day. I hate feeling so bogged down with this ginormous To Do list.

• My coffee was SO good today. I got some fresh beans last night…Mmmm…  

• I’m going to the doctor tomorrow. I promised Lonnie I would. I hate doctors. They suck. All of ‘em. They’re never very nice…and the ones who are nice don’t seem to help much, anyway.

• The reason I’m going to the doc…well, there are actually two reasons. 1. My back/neck pain has gotten unbearable again. 2. I need an increase in dosage of my meds. The anxiety/panic and depression are getting super bad again, and I hate it. I’ll be okay…I just need the right level of chemicals in me.

• I’m hungry for dessert. I shouldn’t say that. I’m actually not hungry at all…just craving something sweet. Ice cream would be good. Or a Snickers would rock, too!

• It’s so weird that I like sweets so much lately. I used to dislike them a lot. I never ever craved sweet stuff. It seems like the older I get, though, the more I like them. Just what my thighs need!

• I switched back to the Mirage Alpha Opera skin yesterday. I needed a change.

• For those of you who use Twitter, you should really check TweetDeck out! I sent the link to Casey earlier today, and she agrees that it’s badass! Do it!

• I’m soooo cold! I wish I could talk Lonnie into turning the A/C off.

• I downloaded a new color browser today. It’s really awesome. I’ve already put it to good use while working on that fireworks site earlier. You should check it out if you’re into that sort of thing.

• These people should pay me to be advertising their programs like this! …just kidding, but wouldn’t that pwn?!

• Alright…time to go back to work. The last thing I need is to get out of my creative groove. That would TOTALLY suck!