I’m not in the mood to bullet point all of my babbling, so I decided not to create Random Randomness© this time. I’ll just type in paragraphs like ‘normal’ people do.

I’m doing fairly well lately. The flu came and finally left. My whole family is recuperating nicely. My Mom & daughter still have a cough, but that’s it. Their lungs are doing their best to repair themselves.

I weighed myself two days ago and was stunned…in a bad way. I don’t know how it happened, but somewhere along the way, I gained ten pounds! Needless to say, I almost had a nervous breakdown when I saw that and have been on the straight and narrow ever since. I’m just baffled as to how it happened. I hardly ever even eat…and when I do, it’s not generally fatty/high calorie foods. I swear - I could walk past a cupcake and gain two pounds. It’s so not fair. I think what happened was that I wasn’t getting the exercise my body was used to while I was sick, so everything I ate just sat on my gut and thighs. I’ll lose it and everything will be okay, but ’til then, I’m completely disgusted with myself.

In other news; I have an appointment with a new doctor in the morning. It’s concerning my neck/back injury. I had found a really good doctor in St. Helens, Oregon…but then something happened with my insurance, so I had to stop seeing him. I’m not happy about it at all, but there’s not much I can do at this time. I figure I’ll go to this new doctor tomorrow to see if she’s any good…and if so, maybe I can transfer my care to here in Vancouver. It’d be nice to not have to drive over and hour just to see the doctor. I definitely need one, though. I’m in a massive amount of pain lately. I’m okay…same ol’ junk. I flared it up, though, by lifting something I shouldn’t have lifted. Since then, it’s not been the same. That’ll teach me! (maybe)

I’m going to be baking cookies today. I feel like a horrible person. I signed up for a cookie exchange in December and my friend, James, sent me some totally awesome cookies. I was supposed to have sent him his cookies a long time ago, but failed to do so. So that’s why I’m baking cookies. I feel like I should bake 3294873 cookies just to make up for being so late. I seriously feel so crappy about it. I hope he can forgive me.

I need to get back to mailing cards and letters to my friends. I haven’t been doing that, either. This whole being sick thing brought everything to a screeching halt. I also think I’ve got some depression issues going on. I’m not interested in doing the things I used to love to do. I don’t even feel like making cupcakes! You know that something’s up when I say, “Meh” to making cupcakes. I’m on anti-depressants. Maybe I need to have my dosage increased. It’s been a couple years with no increase. I’d assume they lose their effectiveness over time. I’ll bring it up to the doctor tomorrow and see what she thinks. Something’s gotta give, though. It’s not cool to feel this way all the time.

Wow…I feel like such a whiner. All I’m doing is griping about stuff. I think I’ll go ahead and call it quits for now. I don’t want to come off as emo or something disgusting like that. Have a lovely day!

Just a quick FYI - I seem to have caught some of the nasty flu bug that my family was passing around. I’m not feeling as crappy as they were - thank God, but still not feeling good, either.  I’m taking it easy until this thing goes away, though. The last thing I need is to push it too hard and end up feeling even worse. I’m pretty much just laying around being lazy until I feel better.

I’ll be okay - no big deal. I just don’t think sitting here on my computer all day long is going to help me feel better. While I miss all of my friends on here, I know that it’s in my best interest to be laying down.  For once I’m actually listening to my body.    ;)

I’ll be back as soon as I’m feeling up to it! Take care…

• After getting a lot of well needed rest and relaxation yesterday, I’m back and feeling much better than I was.  I could still stand to relax some more, but my ginormous list of Things To Do disagrees with that logic.

• I just got off the phone with my Dad. He’s not doing nearly as well as I had hoped he’d be. He said he’s really been dealing with feeling overly dizzy lately. The doctors aren’t sure why. He’s 6′4″ and weighed about 225 lbs. prior to the heart surgery. (Less than four weeks ago) He’s now down to 205 lbs.  - which is a pretty unhealthy weight for his build. He’s underweight, and apparently the doctors think that maybe he lost too much weight too quickly, and that’s why he’s dealing with dizziness. He’s doing his best to eat and gain weight back. I hope he feels better very soon.  

• Lonnie made coffee today. It’s a little bitter, but still pretty good. The gesture was certainly a sweet one and very appreciated!

• My Mom is at a job interview right now. I’m hoping that she gets it. She is having one heck of a hard time finding a job.  It’s stressful for all of us and has left her feeling depressed and useless.  

• Wow…I’m just a ball of sunshine today, huh?!  

• I’m making Taco Salads for dinner tonight. With ground turkey, of course.

• I just turned LaunchCast on….wow. There is some really crappy music on that thing.

• Okay, now it’s on Big Hits of The 80’s. Maybe that’ll be good.

• I feel like a big, fat cow lately. I hate feeling this way. I mean, nobody likes to feel like a cow, but I really, really hate it.

• “I’ll Be Watching You” by The Police just came on.

• I just got up, walked over to Lonnie, planted a huge kiss on his neck, and came back to finish my Randomness.  

• It occurred to me a couple days ago that I’ve not taken pictures of anything in about a month.  That’s just not like me. I think I might be beginning the downward spiral to S.A.D.. I need to nip that mother in the bud!

• I also need to recharge the batteries for my camera. This whole not taking pictures thing is buggin’ me. I love posting picture blogs…and other people seem to enjoy them, too. I will make a point to get that going ASAP!

• “Don’t You (forget about me)” by Simple Minds just came on. Pretty neato song…I LOVE “The Breakfast Club“! Holy crap…I had some MAJOR hots for Judd Nelson in that movie.

• I’ve always gone for the “bad boy” type of guy. Lonnie was pretty much the first decent guy I really ever went for. All of my other boyfriends were more of the long-haird, hard-ass kinda guys.      I wish I would have known then what I know now! Nerds/Geeks make awesome partners!

• Psssht…I hate the fact that this LauchCast Radio thingy has commercials.  

• I still haven’t gone to a doctor for my broke toe.      I just keep stubbing that sucker more and more. I haven’t taken anyone’s advice and taped it up or anything. I have no idea what my problem is…I just keep making the break worse and worse.

• I suddenly got an urge to play some Grand Theft Auto. Too bad I wasted my lazy day doing nothing yesterday!

• I think I’m going to go take a shower and do some laundry…then come back to my computer and work on a layout. Yeah…I will. Catch ya’ later!